Aaron
I didn't actually admit to myself that I was gay until like 3 months ago. For the past three years I've been wrestling with the fact that I was gay. I didn't even want to believe it myself. I'd had homosexual relations at a young age due to abuse but after the abuse was over I continued to have gay sex. I thought that I just did it because I was comfortable with it because it was easy. I knew what to do you know what I'm saying? Then about three years ago I started to accept the fact that I was bi because I still was attracted to women. But finally I came to the realization that the only reason I was attracted to girls was the fact that I was scared to be gay.I've heard about all the things gay people have had to deal with and I just didn't want to experience that. Then I met Justin. Well actually I met him when I first accepted that I was bi. We fooled around a little and actually started dating. I fell in love with him and that is when I knew I was 100% gay but still didn't want to believe it so I kept lying to myself. After I finally accepted the fact I was gay I started to tell my closest friends and boy was I scared. All of them where very accepting and I couldn't believe I denied myself all of this freedom that I was feeling. Now I have told everyone except my dad and like 3 of my friends.
The only thing I regret is when my mom asked me straight up on time and I lied to her. She died before I ever got the chance to be truthful to her. But even my brother knows and he said that he had known for a long time but just wanted me to tell him when I was ready.
But now things are going good I'm still working up the courage to tell the last 3 friends but I don't think I will tell my dad at least not right now. But I will tell my friends very soon.
